Hello. I am glad you came to read my post!
I have been on SB for over a year. I had an emergency recently, and it has taken all my time, so I have not been active much on SB for months. I am feeling lonely and am needing connection. i am seeking Allies to begin SB again with me once this emergency passes and I have enough time. I hope that will be soon, but I do not know, so I cannot make definite plans yet.
I decided to post now, since finding Allies may take awhile. Maybe some of you are flexible and can add an Ally at any time you and your new Ally are ready. I will be ready when this emergency passes. This is what I mean by seeking FUTURE Allies.
I am a retired senior woman, divorced, with no chiidren. I have issues of co-dependence, procrastination, clutter, anxiety, family conflict, and stress. I am under a lot of pressure in this family conflict, which is the most difficult part of my life. I also have a significant difficulty of reduced life energy. Medical test show no problem, so I believe this is due to stress. I am working on healthy self-care, including nutrition, ample sleep, stress relief, and exercise.
One of my great interests is computer graphics, which I look forward to resuming when I am able to buy the needed technology. I love sunshine, reading, walking, looking up ideas on the web, watching movies, and puttering around the house. I enjoy hearing birds singing in the sunshine on my patio right now. I am grateful and happy to be retired. I also love dancing, kitties, going out to eat, having a few close friends, and visiting Yosemite Valley, but these things must wait until I have more energy.
My education and background are in psychology and personal growth work. I am currently involved in Non-Violent or Compassionate Communication (NVC), and Inner Relationship Focusing. I am learning how to work with myself in these processes. The recent emergency interrupted this, but I am doing what I can now, and I will resume and continue this work.
I am learning through experience that healthy change spontaneously occurs, not by one part of me that knows best forcing change on another contrary and resistant part of me, but by radical acceptance of all parts of me exactly as they already are. It is a fascinating paradox.
This view may not dovetail with the SB idea of Bad Guys, as I believe there are no inner Bad Guys. I am interested in resolving this dillemma for myself, so I can decide how to use SB in view of this. Maybe battling a Bad Guy could instead be a process of befriending and truly hearing that part of me.
While it is not essential, I would enjoy Allies who share their thoughts, feelings, needs, experiences, interests, discoveries, and awareness process about their ongoing life in their posts. I honor this communication as authentic, personal, and private. I myself post like this when I have time. I find such posts from Allies interesting to read and comment on, especially when other Allies join in and different views are shared. Since I cannot get out to interact much yet, this is welcome stimulation.
I cannot offer a large time commitment, but I can offer my compassion and my ideas whenever I have time, and i am seeking Allies who can do the same. Would you like to consider this? If so, please send me a Private Message (PM) and tell me about yourself. I look forward to hearing from you!